Wow..I haven't posted anything since last year in 2015!!
These past few months have included the best and worst moments in my life; going from the beautiful, and breathtaking Costa Rica, all the way to finding out someone has a deathly sickness. Most my think "Wow beautiful Costa Rica, so that means hotels, ziplining, tanning by the beach, an swinging with the monkeys in the jungle." No. Not even close. I was deep in the middle of no where traveling around helping poor helpless children come to know their Lord and Savior. In total, we brought 79 kid and teens to Christ by playing their difficult home game of soccer, and singing/dancing. Below are just a few of the many pictures capturing the life changing pictures I was
blessed to experience.
This as you can imagine, changed my whole perspective on people and how much I take my everyday undertakes and endeavors. Coming into 2016, I started driving, went to Costa Rica, got closer with my friends, closer with God, and I thought all was going well.
Then it fled in like a hurricane. Stage 3 Breast Cancer was detected in her left breast. Not her. Not my best friend. not my mom. The anger poured into me and I couldn't help but storm off she told me. I kept my feelings hidden being he stubborn, feeling conserved girl that I am. My mom left me alone to gather my thoughts and really try and digest the complication I was given at hand. All I felt was this overwhelming feeling of anxiety, confusion, anger, and hopelessness. I go into my room pacing, and I just punched and Punched. My knuckles aching my just the third or fourth punch and so I had to stop. I collapse onto my bed crying wondering why this happened to her. Even now, after almost a week, there are times where I feel like I am not going to be able to handle it. That I'm not strong enough. But that the thing...the point is just that. Im not strong enough on my own, and I cant get through this on my own. God has his arms open wide telling me to come to Him cause He is here for me, but I am just sitting there staring at him with resentment and outrage, unwilling to give in to his everlasting love.
I say all of this because cancer blows. It sucks no matter what stage, type, or treatment plan, but God is greater than all of this and hes got my back.
Love Always,
{MLC}
